Live in the moment...

lets seee ummm since the last tiem i updated this a lot has happened

-graduated high school
-got into college
-got a job at herbergers
-got my own computer
-got a sidekick
-found out who my true friends were
-fell in love with summer again


i'm hoping to keep this more updated. love youuuu

[ ] stayed single
[x] got kissed
[ ] kissed someone new
[x] made out
[x] made out in a car
[x] kissed in the snow
[x] kissed in the rain
[x] had my heart broken
[ ] broke someone else's heart
[x] had a stalker
[x] lost a friend
[x] had a good relationship with someone
[ ] questioned my sexual orientation
[ ] came out of my closet
[ ] got pregnant
[ ] had an abortion
[ ] got married
[ ] had a divorce
[x] kissed someone of the same sex
[x] met someone that I will never forget
[x] did something I regret
[ ] lost my true love
[x] lost faith in love (at one point)
[ ] kissed under mistletoe
[ ] got a promotion
[ ] got a pay raise
[ ] changed jobs
[x] lost my job
[ ] quit my job
[ ] dated a coworker
[ ] dated my boss
[ ] dated my boss's son/ daughter
[x] got fired from my job
[ ] got straight A's
[x] met a teacher who I became friends with
[x] met a teacher who I really hate
[x] found the subject I love
[ ] failed a class
[x] cut class
[ ] skipped school
[ ] got in a fight with a classmate
[x] did something I was proud of
[x] discovered a new talent
[x] proved myself an idiot
[ ] embarrassed myself in front of the class
[ ] fell in love with a teacher
[x] was involved in something that I will never forget
[x] wrote a poem
[x] ran a mile
[x] listened to music I couldnt stand
[x] double dipped
[ ] skinny dipped
[x] went to a sleepover
[ ] went to camp
[ ] threw a surprise party
[x] laughed till I cried
[ ] laughed till I peed my pants
[ ] flirted shamelessly
[ ] visited a foreign country
[ ] visited a foreign province
[x] cooked a disastrous meal
[x] lost something important to me
[x] got a gift I love
[x] realized something new about myself
[x] went on a diet
[ ] tried to gain weight
[x] dyed my hair
[x] came close to losing my life
[x] someone close to me died
[ ] went to a wild party
[x] drank alcohol
[x] drank alcohol underage
[ ] got drunk
[ ] got arrested
[x] read a great book
[x] saw a great movie
[ ] saw a movie so scary that it made me cry
[x] saw a favorite band live
[x] did something that I want to tell everyone
[x] experienced something new
[x] made new friends
[x] found out who your real friends are
[x] lied to your parents
[ ] snuck out
[ ] got in trouble with police
[x] kissed in a pool
[x] kissed under the stars
[ ] smoked
[ ] did illegal drugs
[ ] got wasted
[x] went to a party
[x] had the time of your life
[x] danced
[ ] fell out of love
[x] had a crush on someone
[ ] changed your sexual preference
[x] swam in a pool
[x] made a snowman
[ ] went snowboarding
[ ] went skiing
[x] went sledding
[x] slept in past 2pm
[x] held someones hand that you care about
[ ] got wasted in a public place
[ ] got wasted in Mexico
[x] told someone you like them as more than a friend
[x] gone on vacation
[x] gone on vacation with a friend
[ ] driven a car
[x] played strip poker
[x] danced in the rain
[x] got in a car accident
[x] seen someone get in a car accident
[ ] got in a fist fight
[x] laughed until you couldn't breathe
[x] had an amazing year
[x] missed someone
[ ] got hit by a car
[ ] sent someone to the hospital
[ ] got a new pet
[x] enjoyed this year overall

Following the death of former Iraqi dictator Sadam Hussien I have an even greater lack of respect for this country that so many people want to be apart of. Not only was the execution public to Iraqis it was also caught on camera cell phones just waiting to hit MySpace pages the next day. I don't mean to say that he didn't deserve it. He was a guilty man. But I often wonder about such people and the people they could have become if they hadnt grown up in a world full of hate. Death was something Sadam was raised in. He knew no other way of life. If you grew up learning to hate Americans wouldnt you hate them?

I have a lot of anger for this country...and the leaders...I dont know if I'm proud to say I'm an American at this point.

Birth_

Name on your birth certificate: Joyce Lee Marrin
Date of birth: April 14, 1989
Place of birth: Minneapolis, MN
Parents names: William and Patti
Parents ages: 40, 42
Any older siblings?: No

_15 Years Ago_

How old were you? Around 3
How old were your siblings? Two and not born
Which did you get along with best? My sister
Which parent did you prefer? probably my dad
Did you have any pets? yes
If so, names and types? dog- kiesha
If you were in school, who was your teacher? n/a
How were your grades? n/a
Who was your best friend? Erin Glennon and Merete
Where did you live? Minneapolis
What kind of music were you listening to? ??
Favourite toys? I'd assume little kis toys
Favourite movie? I loved chitty chitty bang bang
What's your most prevalent good memory? playing with the daycare kids.
Bad memory? clowns and ants...

_10 Years Ago_

How old were you? 7
Which sibling did you get along with best? sister
Which parent did you prefer? dad?
Did you have any pets? no.
Who was your teacher? mrs. jamal-piceins
How were your grades? i was in the excellerated class
Where did you live? Minneapolis.
What kind of music were you listening to? hmm couldnt tell you
Favourite toys? Barbies?
Favourite movie? Couldnt tell yoy
What's your most prevalent memory? Dont know

_5 Years Ago_

How old were you? 12
Which sibling did you get along with best? Sister
Which parent did you prefer? Mom
Did you have any pets? Cat, dog
Who was your teacher? Mrs. Hall
How were your grades? Pretty good
Who was your best friend? Olivia
Where did you live? Bloomington
What sort of music were you listening to? Eminem, weird stuff like that
Were you drinking, doing drugs, smoking? no
Most prevalent emotion? uhmmmm getting in a fight with olivia and then making up because my teacher made us


__1 Year Ago_

How old were you? 16
Did you have any pets? 2 Cats, one dog
Who was your favourite teacher? Levinski
Who was your best friend? JOn
Where did you live? Bloomington
What kind of music were you listening to? everything you can imagine.
Favourite movie? Thirteen
Were you drinking, doing drugs, smoking? At one point
Most prevalent emotion? I dont know
Did you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Yes
If so, a bit about them: Hes amazing

_Today_

How old are you? 17
Do you have any pets? 2 cats 1 dog
Who is your best friend? jon
What kind of music do you listen to? everything.
Do you drink? not really
Smoke? no
Do drugs? no.
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? yes
If so, a bit about them: He amazing
Your favourite memory from the past year: EVERYTHING
Any exciting plans for the future? college?
What do you think you're going to do after this? school?

Today has been long and boring. Everyone here is so incompetent that I think I may have to be homeschooled. I fear my head is going to explode out of anger at their stupidosity. The video after SPOTS about Kristi made me cry. What else is new. I wrote her family a card last nite while i was at work. It made me feel a little bit better. I like not having snow. Its nice. Quit complaining because you know once we do get snow you will all be cranky about it and complain about how hard it is to drive in it. Boo Hoo. I'm moving to Costa Rica right now.
Speeking of Costa Rica...Im poor. If any of you want to donate to the "Joyce is too poor to pay for Costa Rica" fund please let me know. Its too much to ask of my parents to pay for the whole $2100 just to get there.
I love you.

So the concert was good minus the fat, ugly, drunk people and my migraine. Oh, and the fact that my eardrums were crackaling. I dont even know if thats a word but anyways, I had fun.

I feel bad that Kristi Gozola has passed on, but sometimes its just time to let go. she had a good life and she put up a hard fight. There was just nothing more they could do.

I hope that I dont have to work on the night of the vigil.

Well, that was kinda depressing but Im outtie.

new layout....it has a snowman!

i feel like i didnt get the most out of this summer.
i dont think i created memories that will be with me forever.
i think i should have made the most of this summer and i didnt.

regret. what a feeling.

i hate band.
6-10's start today.
YUCK.

i have a job interview at 11.
well technically its a second job interview.
i basically have the job.
i need it real bad.
im too poor to go to costa rica.

bet you didnt know it was naturally curly...but it is now redish. 
you like?

Band will be starting soon. Icky.
Megan has a new boy and I'm WAY happy for her.
Me and Jon are amazing.
I love summer.

I'm now a red head.

Pics up soon.

I saw the Weinermobile last nite.

Best nite of my life.

No joke.

I NEVER THOUGHT IN A MILLION YEARS I WOULD
FIND SOMEONE  SO  AMAZING  AND  COMPLETELY
PERFECT SOMEONE THAT WOULD MAKE ME HAPPIER
THAN  I  HAVE  EVER  DREAMED  IN  MY  LIFE
SOMEONE WHO WOULD  GIVE  ME  A  WHOLE  NEW
REASON TO BREATHE LIKE HE DOES TO ME <3333

Baby is this love for real?
Let me in your arms to feel
Your beating heart baby,
The beating of your heart baby
E|  E|  E|  E|  E|  E|  E|  E|

dont tell me
Skys the Limit
when theres footprints on the moon

oh,dontworry
you didnt break me.
no,  sweetie you competely destroyed me.

[ & I will pull the trigger ]
[ Sometimes life seems too quiet Into paralyzing silence ]
[ & We kiss each other one more time ]
[ & I begin to fade Into our secret place ]

its summer and i love it!

I don’t really know why I never update this thing anymore. I guess I just don’t feel the need to tell people things or don’t have the energy to go on about things others seem to think are insignificant. Whatever reason it is, I am now updating everyone on the oh-so interesting life that I lead. My break has been basically uneventful with the sporadic activities such as going to the zoo with my love and playing video games for four hours with smelly boys. I slept over at Jenny’s and rented a movie with Eric. I just got back from the mall with nick and Blake. I saw Laura, Libby, Gina, and Corey. That was oodles of fun I suppose. I had a job interview this afternoon. I thought it went pretty smoothly I seemed to interest them just because at this point I don’t care what the job is I just need one. The activity center is close and I guess it pays pretty damn well but I won’t know anything until like after Easter. So boo on that whore. I'm going to Jon’s relatives on Sunday for Easter. That should be pretty fun. I always like seeing his family. This coming Friday I get to have a slumber party with Lora Fike because the one we planned for tonite fell through. Oh well. I no longer am having panic attacks about finding a prom dress because I have decided to let my mom make it. It will be tailored to me so it will fit perfectly unlike the store bought ones that are made for bootylicious, boobilicious, and hippy girls. Plus I think I like the color better than what I saw in stores. Ok well that’s about all. Peace n’ love.

One year today. ♥
That’s love right there.


The 7th was the one year mark for Ana’s death. I brought flowers to her grave and Olivia’s for the first time ever. It was really peaceful. It was dark and cold. I think I'm finally ok with the fact that they're not here anymore.

I think I need to spend more time with the people I love.

I'm sorry to say I am not going to bitch and moan about having school today. Frankly, I didn't much care.

I couldn’t be happier than I am right now.